Thursday, July 16, 2009
My ex-best guy friend...
We were such amazing friends. No joke. We'd spend hours on the phone to each other. We'd spend hours with each other. But that's all gone. And yes, I know that's partly my fault. I know I took him for granted, and ignored him too much but I didn't mean to and it just got a bit fucked up. Not like there was any awkwardness or anything but there just wasn't as much communication between us. Now, admittedly he got a life in this period, so fair enough. But I dunno anymore. Sure I miss him, but it's not like I'm going to be crying myself to sleep over him. At all. And now that he's trying to be 'too mad' and whatnot I can't take it. Like he just thinks about other people way too much and he's far too insecure. I preferred the old him, when he did fuck all and was a good boy and all that jazz. But that all stopped and he thinks he's all this and all that. So whatever. I don't exactly need him anymore. It'd be nice to be good friends again but there's other people I'd be way more devestated to lose than him. So in a way it's a bit meh. If he wants to be good friends, I'm there, but if not I'm not going to be losing sleep. Because in truth, he's irritating me a bit at the moment. And I don't need that. There's another guy - I've mentioned him before - a friend, and if I lost him it'd be worse. And once this guy friend comes around and changes and goes through this trying to be in with the cool crowd phase, then maybe we can be friends. He's just too high maintainence right now, and I really can't deal with that. I'm not trying to be mean at all, I do like him. But he's being a prick, and that's the only conclusion I can come to.
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